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[Nov. 10th, 2009|02:58 pm] |
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You know that life gets better when everything falls into place |
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[Oct. 4th, 2009|03:53 pm] |
You see, we all knew that leaving your friends for a girl would make you regret hardcore, and there you go 'No, you're the best thing that ever happened. Friends aren't as important' Bullshit my dear, BULLSHIT. There, my angst is back. Happy reading the upcoming posts to the 10 year olds. There, this is something for you to bitch about. Yes sylvia, everything also for fuck. Blog like you've never blogged before. Blog like I'm the othe girls who've cheated on you before, blog like I've asked you to go hump something before. Blog like I'm the one who has the trust issues, blog like I'm the one who needs you to introduce me to all your friends. I don't need that honey, I only need a gf who understands & doesn't fight over stupid things like friends. Blog like I didn't feel shit enough that your friends dislike me because our sex wasn't same like theirs, that we had to be 'normal' in order to mingle in. Fuck them kids.
Everyone who's anyone to me knows who Sylvia Ng is, because they hear about her everyday, they know her existence as my best gf. Thank god you blog, and I read. It makes me wake up about us the past 10 months because I read intentionally. With purpose, not aimlessly. If you think this relationship thingy had been so fucked up, then close down your fucking blog, fuck me up on another. The memories are for fuck, then throw them away, nobody would ask if we're ever gfs anyway. Fuck it. Change back your dressing, go amke yourself feel like you deserve nobody again. Go carry on neglecting your gfs and them leaving you. I've never felt so angsty or upset in these 3 weeks, this is killer. I have to find out from a friend that the video has been removed. Seriously, suck on it because this is a level above all level that I'm feeling. This, is how important I was. All these, will be gone tml.
(Remember this?)
melissa daniel, you are right.
all humans are the same.
theres no such thing as a special someone.
it doesnt fucking exist.
even if it does, he/she is dead.
all relationships are the same.
(Then I should have cheated on you, or whatsoever that those girls do)
(Sitting at the shack to sob & giggle, kamlan? Qio simi? This is stupid shit)
Fuck you cali, seriously. You're turning 10years old too.
I'm sick of all these anger blogging & what life has thrown unto me. |
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[Oct. 4th, 2009|03:08 pm] |
Horror movies, do they remind you of somebody? Like how it reminds me of you because you always refused to watch these kinda shows & I'll follow suit. I've never caught a horror with you except the one girl who has had flies coming out from her mouth, Back to Hell or something? This is really wrong, I'm hardly emotional these days, these 2 months in fact. I planned to wake up another day happy, not miserable. I miss stuffing our ear pieces into our ears during the show cause it was too loud & scary for you. Listening to Taylor Swift when the gruesome parts come in. Movies, I think they bring out the most of our memories.
Like how it was the first time you held my hand, and we were both having the 'erm..' reaction. Or us catching late night buses because I liked them, although it was a waste of money. And that one time you told me you actually lied about wanting to sleep, just to lie on my shoulders. I miss you screaming at the sight of crockroaches or anything that flies. And I'm going to miss you so much more when I have a place to myself, because I used to wake up to you almost every morning when mummy went away. I used to wake up baking cakes for you, I used to do small little silly things I'd never do for anyone. I'd miss you, terribly. It's just a feeling and yet I can't get rid of it just like that. I miss you more than I missed you yesterday, and it's breaking me down already. I never knew this was going to be so hard, never knew it'd end up so messy & accused. I hate this feeling, because I never knew how to handle these situations & I hate being emotionally attached to anyone. Aren't I the fucked up one, how come I'm not void of all emotions yet?
I wanted to chase you away, wanted to your ego some good, & I think I did it the wrong way
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[Oct. 3rd, 2009|03:02 pm] |
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I miss us, 10 months back. But it's okay, it's eventual actually. Like how you miss someone but it's just a feeling, and not that you actually have to do something about. Better than denying my feelings, I'm fine w this. Let's be honest, everybody misses someone once in awhile. And I, I miss you, miss you 10x more than I ever missed you.
And I don't have to blog to pretend I'm happy, upset or whatsoever. I think it's gonna get us nowhere, just confuse ourselves instead. I don't know why things got this way but it did, and it's too late to fix things back. I'm a angsty/happy person everyday and I just can't control it. I'm sorry you have to take this, really. There, I'm done venting. I don't miss us anymore for today. Right now, I think I'm just psychotic, with everything happening at one time, rofl.
What a mockery. |
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[Oct. 1st, 2009|07:22 pm] |
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Never, been so lost before
Overwhelmed with mixed emotions, I'm glad I'm moving out soon, gimme a few days and I'll be done packing. Where were you when I felt the most vulnerable? You know, the plans today were actually to have fun with Gurleen & Stacy at Dbl O but all thanks to me, it's cancelled. I have the biggest headache of my 2 years & my eyes were so clear even with 2days of contacts on, they felt weird. And you know what S? Fuck you. You think your life is shit, step into my world. You'll thank god your not me.
Coming home 5 hours ago so does not help my situation at all, just 2 hours of sleep & I'm up, to be out again in half an hour & the whole cycle's going to continue. Are you even sure that your heart's with me? I keep procrastinating to move out over & over again, and now, I'm finally doing it. But the hard part is, that whether I'm really going let everything go, my family. Nvm, it hurts now, won't hurt no more in a few days time. Like right now, all I want to do is have 2 thousand bucks in my face, and I'll book a ticket to anywhere. Anywhere but here. No matter how okay I think I am, my head can't help but ache, like what's going to happen to me now that I'm in this state, with practically nothing. This is heart wrenching, I hate it, a lot. Somebody, please, make things better.
Me, I don't think I'm right for you
You, you wouldn't like me
In time to come
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[Sep. 29th, 2009|11:09 pm] |
So we've planned, Bangkok on January if I've accumulated a thousand & more with the girls or Juliet since RP's having their next hols then. And as much as there are going to be memories lingering around, I'm still going to insist on the backpacker's hotel that we stayed earlier & etc. Meetup with Ju the whole of today, fun, fattening & mi lu-ing. Tampines just for subway, town just for Yumi(?) yoghurt, ion supposedly to shop but she ended up buying nothing, lols. I'd upload the few photos that we took now but the desktop's sd connection's down, and my laptop's not available. Hokay, I'm gonna turn in early because beeyankkee needs me to wake up & open my door in the afternoon to take stuff, so laceh, tsktsk. (I hope you're giving me a million dollars, or a baby panda) Oh yes, miss youuuuuuuuu but you're not cool. Hokay? Clear? Laughs.
I like the feeling of being s,
& you like the feeling of s-ing off
And I guess we're cool like that
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[Sep. 29th, 2009|10:58 pm] |
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Did that scare you?
Oh I'm sorry, but I meant to
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[Sep. 28th, 2009|02:00 pm] |
Maybe truth, maybe lies, make me want you
Maybe dumb, maybe wise, I don't know
But the truth is, it's painless, letting your love show
And fyi, your perspective on life sucks.
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[Sep. 28th, 2009|01:03 pm] |
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3rd picture, we look like ij girls boh? The wear hairband with bun look, plus Daryl
HAHHAHAHA WHAT THING?!?!? Look at the expressions.
Weird boys.
Heart this pic, for thou' looks happy and not fat (:
 
Dee! ((:
The pictures are out and ohmygahhhhhhhhh, simidaiji la!
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[Sep. 27th, 2009|11:45 am] |
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2 AWESURMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM NIGHTS IN A ROW.
Pictures above (Stolen from Charm) are the photos for the first night at Bell's pub. No pictures for the afternoon at town but it would be entertaining because it would show Tiff being fucking scared of everything, including Quarantine.The next batch of pictures, should be ROCKINNNNNNNNN! Spin's, subway, stolen Barley(OHMYGAHJOYOUALSOBELLYHIONG), more Spin's thinking we're waiting for more people to come but actually, no, then SOHO instead of se7en. Best experience ever, not high but good music, great crowd, dance like funny only. More, thankew. OH, SEXY'S COMING BACK 2NAIXZXZXZX! Ree is belly excited I tell you. See you soon. Hokay, stop typing, daddy's aircon is killing my flu-d up nose. Zai Jianzxzxz
Just the two of us,
building dem' castles in the sky |
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[Sep. 26th, 2009|03:07 pm] |
Homeclub played Suedeeeeeeeeeeee,
beautiful one's my favorite song now
Soooooooo niceeeeeeeeeee! |
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[Sep. 25th, 2009|03:20 pm] |
I like dem' tall, dark(not malay), skinny, nice long hair-d girls who dress sedap
Where to find, talldarknotmalayskinnynicelonghairsedapdressing.com?
Full body pierced & tattoo-d, better still, lagi best!
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| Teh peng w/o peng, thankeww |
[Sep. 25th, 2009|02:32 pm] |
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I HATE TO RMB BIRTHDAYS, CANCEL OUT THE LONG POST
(Please don't ask me to rmb yours, I have problems with dates, like how I have problems with my brain)
3 WORDS, KAO TIM.
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[Sep. 22nd, 2009|12:51 am] |
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'To find comfort in your laughter's the best thing that happened to me' Awesome much/ |
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[Sep. 21st, 2009|08:40 pm] |
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Now instead of heading to summer breeze with Ri, I'm baking. Buttercake, buttercake, I'm actually baking after so long I-so-cannot-believe-it. And it's from scratch, not the lazy so buy half of the ingredients that are conveniently packed in a box kind. And I had the best spicy onion with egg fried rice ever, all done by Mr. S (Sorli, habit to call him that) Cooks good curry too! Truffles, surprise bites, cheesecake & millionaire's shortbread soon, soooooooo can't wait for Sexy to come back from Melbourne (We're gonna cook in her mummy's kitchen)
Today's not so bad, I actually passed today without going out, although I'm kinda considered out since I haven gone home yet but aiyaaaa it's productive. Hokay I'm gonna poke the butucake with a tooth pick already. Miss everybody's late night talks & qio ka peng moments. Miss you, too.
back in the dirt! |
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[Sep. 21st, 2009|01:38 pm] |
Be realistic,
life is ironic itself
You want pancakes?
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[Sep. 20th, 2009|11:10 pm] |
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Come back to you.
But It's Empty. |
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[Sep. 19th, 2009|04:38 pm] |
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"If love was the oscar, you and I could never win
Cause' we could never act our parts"
And the hurt, it's coming out now. Coming out with the last page.
You're my precious, not unworthy, at all. Be safe at Medan, I'm sorry I'm so hard on us. |
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[Sep. 17th, 2009|02:45 pm] |
'If you ever step on my bitch, I'll bring you down, bring you down..'
I haven't really blogged, like really, really blog on livejournal, like for real. But I've nothing much to blog about because I'm a photos kinda person and life hasn't been that good, I haven't been that good, so nah, I change my mind. I'm stopping after the imu sentence because I wanna play playfirst games & feed my pet on facebook.
I could be brown
I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful
I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green
Gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
'I hope you're doing good, I hope you're getting to play mj & party like mad every night'
'Really, you deserve the fun'
Anyhoes, I miss you. |
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